Last day of June

Wowsers - it is June 30th! That means next month is almost upon us, the one that has been looming since mid-November. Birth month. Well, not MY birth month obviously, but the birth month of the next most important person in my life: the yet to be named because we don't know the gender baby. There are so many emotions running through me right now (along with a cup of coffee because an early morning airport run has disrupted my sleep schedule a bit :) that I just don't know where to start. I'm scared, anxious, excited, and curious about how it will all shake down.
A wrinkle in the plan is that baby does not want to flip down - he/she is still firmly lodged near my ribs. We thought last night, after some moxibustion and an inversion, that there may have been some flippage - actually I could swear that the bum was near my ribs and head was near my belly button, but that seems to have reversed after a night of sleep. It's just getting tighter in that space, which makes it harder to walk around, breathe at times, and leaves my whole belly quite sore after the moxibustion acrobatics. My belly just rumbles after we burn that stuff sometimes and it's getting a little jarring at times because last night he/she got some good kidney shots in there I'm convinced.
Sooo, with this non-baby flipping into "position", I'm trying to prepare myself for the possibility of a c-section, which would happen in two weeks. Yikes indeed. That totally wasn't what I was looking toward, but I know that the most important thing is that baby gets out safe and sound. Still, all my prep has been for a natural childbirth, so this places a tiny wrench in the plans (not like Frank Wrench). Plus, surgery scares me, plain and simple. I've never had it before and hospitals creep me out anyways; I get all lightheaded and shaky. Of course, it can all change in a moment and there is positivity out there, but after three weeks of trying to do the big flip, I'm feeling a bit discouraged. Yes, there are other methods I can try (the ECV, chiropractor, etc), but I feel confident that we have tried a ton with acupuncture, moxibustion, inversion positions, talking, music, ice packs and the lot. It gets to the point of what WILL work? Or begs the question: is there a reason this baby doesn't want to flip? I hope that we can get some more answers at the doctor's office this week.
On a totally random note, I made a kick-ass lemon yogurt cake yesterday with raspberries from the backyard. Light, made with healthier ingredients, and just so fresh and summery. I took pictures, however, the computer does not want to read the pictures from my camera. To which I say to the computer, fine, I didn't want to put my pictures on you anyways (I really didn't....I just need to find the software and reinstall I think, but my brain is not IT oriented, and that sounds pretty awful). However, if I want to continue this blog when baby's born to show pics, I will need to swallow my pride and try again. But, if we are not successful, I am SO not talking to the computer for a week.
Summer is in full swing and I am enjoying being off from work. Although it has been hard to try to fill my day with low-key activities. I think I have found some ways to deal with my need to be doing something with my need to rest: the 20 minute cat nap. I'm pretty sure I took three of those yesterday...it's just that I am the type of person who likes to be accomplished and doesn't need time to sit around with time to think and be idle. Sounds crazy huh? I KNOW it sounds crazy to Jason, but that's my personality. I'm adapting to not being able to walk Lola by letting her outside and throwing the ball. And I don't go balls-out cleaning; I do a little at a time. And I surround myself with books and make at least one outing a day. Kinda sounds like a schedule I will most likely keep with the baby.....
Well, good thoughts out there for a flipping baby, or just good thoughts for whatever decides to happen and that the possibilities and free time don't drive me insane ;).